SADNESS

I can't grope my way out of the darkness
my dreams are all mired in hopelessness
doubt clouds my very essence
nothing makes any sense

I wish every night for a glimmer of hope
there are so many things I can't cope
yet, life seems not to be hearing
all my cries and weeping

I so want to enjoy the sunshine
to be able to say, "thank you, I'm doing fine"
but I can't bring myself to smile
not even for a little while

I'm getting drowned in my tears
I can't see beyond my fears
sadness has wrenched my heart away
happiness has lost it's way

LESS

It pains so much to hear
bad things about yourself
from people you don't even know

But it hurts so much more
coming from people you believe
to be friends you can rely on

Sorry is such an easy word to say
but it amounts to nothing
when uttered carelessly

"to forgive is divine" they tell me
but i'm not a saint so please understand
it will take quite a while to smile again

one day or will it be tomorrow
the sun will come out
maybe by then everything will be fine

but, for now, less is better for you and me
the wounds are still fresh so just let it be

HURTING

I can't stop myself from hurting
no matter how hard I try.
You should see my desperate attempts
to forget you already said goodbye.

Banging my head on the wall
was an option I considered.
Maybe, when I lose consciousness,
my tears would be spared.

I tried immersing myself
in a lot of different things.
But your broken promises
were all I can sing.

I want so much to believe
someday this pain would end.
And I'll make it through
with your help, my friend.

I NEVER PLAN...

I never plan this helplessness
My dreams were all grand
But one should never dare fate
Now everything is out of hand

Nothing turned out as I want
It seems confusion is here to stay
Doubt clouds my every thoughts
Angels are avoiding my way

I can't turn my face away
I want to shout out my frustration
It pains when I try to smile
I want to cry out my desperation

How did these things happened?
Why am in the middle of these?
Who can lend me a hand?
When will all of these cease?